so i just spent the last hour praising the Lord while i went running. and we talked about how when i stress about things that i don't trust. it's funny how God chooses to show us how wrong we are in such a gentle manner...its grace...that's amazing. and i have to do the same right now...my dad and stepmom forgot my birthday again and i'm not surprised, but i have to choose how to react...with grace and love or with worldly anger that can quickly consume me. how come this junk never stops...how come i never keep hoping they will notice me or even remember. i love them so why don't they love me back?
maybe i expect too much. i'm more high maintenance than most, but even with a busy schedule and work, i still make time to visit them for their birthdays. and i just have to remember that God's thoughts about me....and even them, are more numerous than all the grains of sand on earth. and nothing should surprise me. we all need Jesus...
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